TGIF has never rung more strong. I actually am ready for summer to be over--all in all. It has been anything but dull this summer and I'm getting
minorly worn out.
All in all, it's just been one of those weeks. My "mind over matter" mantra has been in the back of my mind and I have been a little down.
Driving home tonight after a fun filled night with my sister and her husband,
juicing and watching an outdoor movie, I began thinking about the future. (Not the best thing to do when you are already not in the cheeriest of disposisitions.) However, after expressing a few concerns, we talked for a bit then sat quietly.
While sitting there, a quote from a string of
a motivational videos (watch it, it's great!) that mike used to listen to every night popped into my head: "if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth; but you
gotta be willing to take the hits
. And not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that!" thanks, Rocky!
I've heard it a million times. We listened to that motivational video almost every night for like six months straight. But it really hit me tonight.
Not exactly cutting to the point, I was feeling afraid that what I wanted to do with my life wouldn't be enough for society or especially family. I realize it's a controversial area of work, but it's going to be MY area of work. And I am willing to take the hits, because I know I'm worth what it's worth: unspeakable words.
Then I got thinking about that Robert Frost poem: The Road Not Taken. And like I do with literary works that imprint on my heart, I looked it up for the thousandth time:
| TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood, | |
| And sorry I could not travel both | |
| And be one traveler, long I stood | |
| And looked down one as far as I could | |
| To where it bent in the undergrowth; | |
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| Then took the other, as just as fair, | |
| And having perhaps the better claim, | |
| Because it was grassy and wanted wear; | |
| Though as for that the passing there | |
| Had worn them really about the same, | |
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| And both that morning equally lay | |
| In leaves no step had trodden black. | |
| Oh, I kept the first for another day! | |
| Yet knowing how way leads on to way, | |
| I doubted if I should ever come back. | |
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| I shall be telling this with a sigh | |
| Somewhere ages and ages hence: | |
| Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— | |
| I took the one less traveled by, | |
| And that has made all the difference. |
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I love that poem with all my heart...and I always have.
After a few deep breaths I realized it's time to stop fearing my future and time to embrace it for everything it is. It doesn't matter who approves or who thinks it's of any worth. I'm doing it for the people who aren't satisfied with traditional medicine. I'm doing it for my future kids who I already love with all my heart. I'm doing it for people who want a better way of life. And most importantly I am doing it for me.
This way of life hasn't only changed me. It's changed everything I am and how I see life and the world. I'd be a traitor to my beliefs if I went back now.
So here's to the haters, the naysayers and the downers: I'm gonna show you how great I am! :)
Because:
Stop listening when people tell you that you aren't good enough. You're more than enough...You're sensational!
